Walls of Jericho

The idea of using walls as a protection isn't a new idea -- if you look back through the years, many of the ancient civilizations we study in school built walls. Ancient cities used to build defensive walls around their cities as a way to fortify and protect their homes from potential threats.

Walls are great at protecting what is inside the walls and keeping out what is not meant to be inside.

What happens when walls are a hindrance? When they keep out what is meant to be inside the walls?

There is a song Mansion by the rapper NF that God has used repetitively in my life. There is a part that says:
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years 
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there.... 
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve ´em [problems] 
I built it because I thought that it was safer in there
Throughout my life, I've experienced abuse, abandonment, pain and more and, as this song says, I built my own mansion and stayed inside because, well, it was safer.

Over the past few months, God has been gently bringing up "Walls of Jericho" to me. Over and over again. He wants my walls to come down because they have been a hindrance to Him.

What a punch to my heart to hear my God say to me, "Your walls are keeping Me out."

Even as I type this, I get choked up because, in my heart of hearts I know that God is a safe place and that letting Him in, letting Him destroy the walls, will be the best decision I could ever make, but the fear is gripping.

The majority of my life, it has been up to me to protect myself - from words or fists - and the idea of letting anyone in fully, even if it is God, has been terrifying.

So, finally heeding God's leading, I sat and read through Joshua 6 where God leads Israel in the defeat of Jericho.

Jericho was "securely shut up" (vs 1) in preparation of the Israelites coming to take over their land.

God gave Joshua specific instructions that, humanly speaking, made no sense with the promise that "the wall of the city would fall down flat" (vs 5).

All Israel had to do was walk in obedience.

I've been challenged by this lesson from the Israelites for the past few months.

My walls have been securely shut up for fear of anyone coming in and bringing more pain. And God's been calling me specifically, to walk around my "walls of Jericho" in obedience to Him so that He can bring the walls to nothing.

He's calling me to walk in obedience as He does this work.

I am not writing this because I have this mastered or because the work is completed, but because more and more I am seeing hurting people. Pain is a human experience and emotion and there are many others who have their own version of their "walls of Jericho" that God wants to bring tumbling down.

I don't know what this looks like but I am leaning hard into the things I do know:

God is good.
God loves me.
God makes all things work together for good for those who are called according to His purpose.
God is always with me.
God will never forsake me.
God never lies.

So, let's get to walking.

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