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Lessons from Heartbreak

I remember the first time I saw him, in class in 10th grade. I sat behind him because we had to sit alphabetically. He was a popular kid, and I wasn't. He ended up leaving our high school and I didn't see him again, until the summer after our senior year.

We reconnected because of MySpace. The first night we became "friends", we were up all night talking. I saw him for the first time in years the following night. We went to look at Christmas lights.  We drove around, listened to music and talked until late that night. It was magical.

I remember the first time we held hands, the first time we kissed. It, he, is engrained in my memory, along with how he broke my heart.

It's been at least ten years since I've seen or spoken to him, but today the pain hit fresh again. My first love and my first heartbreak.

If I'm honest, this trip down memory lane isn't necessarily about him, but about fear. I look at him as a visual reminder of the pain of heartbreak, of…