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I am not Perfect

I've always tried to be perfect. 
Let me rephrase that: I was conditioned to believe that anything less than perfect in was intolerable. 
But perfection is a hard standard to live up to. 
Perfection is a heavy weight to carry because it unintentionally places the burden of everyone else on your shoulders. 
If I'm perfect, we will get along and we won't fight and they won't leave. If I'm perfect, I'll get the job I want and be promoted.  If I'm perfect, I'll have no health, finance, or relationship issues
But people and life are unpredictable and hardships inevitably happen and, if it's my responsibility to keep everything right, these hardships speak of my failure. 
My boyfriend and I broke up? It's my fault.  My parents aren't involved in my life? It's my fault.  I didn't get the job I wanted? It's my fault. 
Being perfect is exhausting. 
And impossible. 
Jesus didn't go to the cross for the perfect. If there were such a thing as perfe…